Roller Coaster

Life sure has been a bit of a roller coaster. I mean mostly with my emotions.

I'm still learning about myself, as well as learning how the boy & my relationship ticks. We are now seeing, which is pretty interesting, how we react to certain things, how we cope - all as a result of how we were raised & the differences each of us has. We know we're not the same person, but I think we're both seeing...wow, I totally understand why you do that, or why you feel that way. Some times you just don't understand though, which is frustrating.

I was raised on "you need 12 hugs a day to be healthy." Whether there's any truth to that, or it was just my mom wanting to get in as many as she could, I've noticed that I really am a 'hugger' :). The boy, not so much. He was sort of taught the typical, don't cry, get up, get tough, don't be a sissy. I was taught to 'let it out.' It makes sense that the boy isn't too sympathetic to crying, but that's how I cope. We are learning how to handle each other when either gets upset. Hard when I don't respond to anger and he doesn't respond to crying...leaves us both feeling like 'they just don't get it.'

Other than exploring the depths of our feeeeelings...the boy is steadily moving in - has bought more furniture and his place is really coming together nicely. My roommate is still doing well & I'll probably get to hang out with her the next few weeks since the boy is leaving tomorrow for about a month : /. It will be good though, he's got to pay his dues & to be honest we probably both need a little space.

Lately I've felt a little disconnected....but I feel as time goes by there's light @ the end of the tunnel. Adult life = learning to roll with the punches that never stop coming! And having a positive attitude as it all comes your way :0)